{Oh, Lord, my heart}

Sometimes my heart feels so still, almost absent completely. It reminds me of the lyrics,

Are you still there inside my chest?
I've been so worried,
You've been so still,
Barely beating at all.

I can feel a little dead inside, waiting for so long. But then. Then comes that moment when God gives me a little shock. 

He gives me a little glimpse ... a tiny one with tiny little fingers curled up and wisps of baby hair and baby smell and tiny little lips. Of a tiny one snuggled into the rise and fall of my chest.

Oh, Lord, my heart. 

He reminds me of what it is that we're working for. And my heart feels like it will burst for the love I feel. For the mother love that has risen in me that will never go away and is there just waiting to wrap my little ones in.

I'm so grateful that God is aware and that he sends us gentle reminders wake and move our hearts so we can take another step and so we can keep breathing.