All I keep thinking is "WHERE DO I EVEN START?!?!?!?!?"
I guess at the beginning would be good...but I don't really feel like making anyone read a novel. So instead....yes, I am going to just tell snippets here and there. Moments that make my heart want to burst. Moments I never ever want to forget. Moments that make me cry with happiness.
Let's start with this one:
Bryce and I got to our hotel, checked in and brought our bags up to our room on the third floor. We unpacked a few things including the baby quilt I had made the month before, a package of diapers , wipes, a couple 3-6 month baby boy outfits and a new baby book. I had picked up a rock and play and a co-sleeper that week so we would have options at the hotel.
My phone kept going off with messages every little bit updating us on where they were and when we would be meeting. I brushed my teeth...again and checked my makeup.
Bryce hugged me again and we prayed together.
We prayed that we would have His spirit with us that day. We gave thanks for all that had brought us to that day and we prayed for her. For this huge decision she was already making and that she would continue to have to make and live with for the rest of her life.
Bryce hugged me again and I breathed him in. I swear he infuses strength into me whenever I need it most.
We left our hotel and got to our car. I navigated and he drove. We stopped for gas since we would be early (as usual). We found the restaurant and Bryce backed into a spot (as usual) and we sat there smiling at each other waiting for it to be time.
We got out and walked inside. Bryce knew they hadn't gotten there yet because he didn't see their car. My response "you've never seen there car and they've never told us what they drive; how would you know?" He responded, "One of the pictures she sent last week was inside a car and I could tell what it was." Oh my husband.
We stepped inside the restaurant and sat down in the waiting area on a bench. Luckily it was the middle of the afternoon and not busy at all. We held hands and Bryce looked at me shaking his head and said, "I just have NO clue how this is even going to go." I wanted to say, "Right?!" but nervously just nodded. How would it be when they walked in? What would we say? What would she say? How would she feel and how would we feel? Would she let us hold him? Would he cry if she did let us hold him? Or would he know....
It was the next moment that Bryce saw their car pull in and I squeezed his hand harder. They parked and walked in. Kristy and her 4 month old, Tyson, and her friend's mother, Tammy. Tammy was holding Tyson facing her with a blanket covering him against the wind. When they came in the door we all knew each other because we had skyped previously.
And it was this moment that set the stage and the relationship that has continued since then. As soon as they walked in, Kristy pulled me into a hug along with Tammy. They took the blanket off of Tyson and let us see him. Then she gave him right to us to hold and insisted on taking a family picture.
In that first 30 seconds of meeting Kristy and Tyson, all our fears of the unknown, all our worries and concerns over adoption and open adoption and bonding were laid to rest. We had so much ahead of us still to figure out but we knew from then on that it was right.